Shar, 34, from east London has spoken out against domestic violence She says she spent '10 years with a physically abusive monster' The mother-of-two says despite getting a conviction there's a 'long way to go'
A mother who ‘lived with a monster’ for 10 years has revealed the horrific injuries he inflicted upon her and the lies she told to cover it up.
Shar Grace Hounley, 34, from east London, spent a decade in a physically and emotionally abusive relationship with her ex-boyfriend.
In 2018, after a campaign of abuse against Shar which lasted for a decade, he was convicted of beating her and spent three months in prison.
Although Shar is grateful he was jailed for what he had done to her, she believes the justice system has ‘a long way to go’ before it is fully supportive of women who have been subject to male violence.
Shar was with her partner for ten years – and was hospitalised several times during the relationship – she would lie to doctors saying she ‘fell over a skateboard’
Shar Grace Hounsley, 34, bravely posted these photos to show the extent of the domestic violence she suffered at the hands of her partner
She told FEMAIL: ‘Yes in 2018, I got a conviction for my abuser, but he was out after three months. It doesn’t feel right after the years of what he put me through.
‘Most women don’t get a conviction and the ones who do, often feel like it’s not enough.
‘In one sense I’m really happy I wasn’t another statistic, and they saw me and heard me – but our justice system is weak.
‘They saw the physical side but didn’t look at the emotional side of the abuse, which has given me all sorts of issues.’
After Shar’s long-term partner who physically and emotionally abused her for years beat her one last time over a sim card, she took to social media with pictures of her bloodied and bruised face. She had needed stitches above her eye.
Shar after the attack when the facial wound was healing, she was still bruised and needed stitches above her eye
Shar decided to waive her right to victim anonymity to show the true, raw face of domestic violence to others
Her ex had physically abused her throughout their relationship, he threw a phone in her face and knocked out her front teeth, and beat her when she discovered that he was cheating on her.
The mother has been in hospital several times for her injuries and had to have one of her teeth extracted as a result of being hit.
She said: ‘When he hit me I would tell the classic lies, like I tripped over a skateboard or something but I don’t know if the doctors knew.’
Earlier on in the relationship Shar noticed her partner would love bomb her, he would compliment her all the time and tell her how beautiful she was.
Shar looks back on the first time her partner abused her.
At the beginning of their relationship her partner told her he was a devout Catholic.
He pressured her into converting to Catholicism despite her not wanting to and flew into a rage when she questioned it.
She told FEMAIL: ‘At first he claimed to be religious and wanted me to be confirmed in the Catholic church, but it didn’t feel right.
Shar now, happier and healthier but still suffers the after effects of what happened to her – she has now made it her mission to help other women and learn as much as she can about toxic relationships. She wants people to understand about the emotional side of domestic abuse too and how it can cause complex PTSD
‘He got very angry when I questioned it and that was the first time he abused me.’
Soon she was pregnant with his child and they were living together, but his treatment of her became nasty and he spent most of his time putting her down and criticising her.
Shar told FEMAIL: ‘He stopped complimenting me altogether and would comment on my weight, he would call me “fatty” and push me to the floor and laugh when I couldn’t get back up mocking me.’
Shar even made efforts to join Slimming World and lost several stone in a bid to feel better about herself but she said ‘the cheating and the lies continued’.
She said: ‘I did it for my health and my son, but he couldn’t stand me feeling better and being confident so the weight would pile back on.’
Over the years, she recalled the things her ex told her that didn’t quite add up.
She said: ‘He would lie about his success, and big up what he had done, even though I knew it wasn’t true.’
Shar now believes she was with a narcissist and has made it her mission to learn as much as she can about the disorder and support other women in the community on online and WhatsApp groups and is a sounding board for anyone going through the same – whilst being a full time mum to an autistic son.
She said: ‘I want people to know all the little details, if someone is moving too fast to be with you or wanting to move in.
‘It’s even in the shows they watch.’
Shar is now thriving and has lost the excess weight that stopped her ‘running around with her son at the park’ but still suffers the emotional after effects of the abuse.
She is now wary of toxic relationships and wants to warn others to get out if they feel their partner is ‘too into them’ or ‘wants marriage and children quickly’.
Her biggest message however is to the justice system. She said: ‘I think the system can be lenient towards abusers.
‘I didn’t even know my abuser had been released, which they should have told me. You can live in fear if you know they are free and there is no restraining order in place.
‘I want the system to recognise the long-term impact abuse has on the victim. How you can develop complex PTSD and anxiety, it’s not all about the physical side.’
If you suspect you are being abused contact Women’s Aid via their website or if you are in immediate danger call 999.